Platypus

Especially if your existence is a constant failure... When you own nothing, you have no future, job and no woman wants you (and you still a virgin as an old adult)... Recently I've feeling suicidal again, I don't think I have the courage to do it, which makes this worse,I can't even stop this from messing with me.

Sorry if you are bothered by this but I'm feeling really rotten. Just... Don't tell me to get help, that's not a possibility. I'm getting tired of just waking up alive.

I do it almost every day watching porn, since there's no chance I'll ever have sex. And I'm trying to stop, but I just need it FFS, is the only type of solace and satisfaction I can get in my life. I wish I could just sleep forever.

For real, that YouTube thing has ruined DBZ perception for newer fans, especially the ones that REFUSE to watch the real anime just because is "too long" or "dated" and now are quoting memes from the parody and misunderstanding the characters and story.

Why does this matters?

Because Dragonball was important for me, especially as a Latino, DBZ at it's prime was a religion in Latin America, still is. And seeing it being butchered by a unfunny parody (yes, I don't think the show is that funny) and being disregarded as lame or just dumb, especially since the parody gets rid of so much lore and makes the characters dumber for comedy and memes. It feels wrong. The voices say they loved the source material, yet they don't understand how damaging their edit was. Do you really think all those reactors on YouTube and their fans watched or paid for "the official release" after watching their thing?

Then again it would not be the only time USA ruined dragon ball, their bad dubs and awful music misrepresented the show before the parody, but that's another story.

Yes, I'm talking about Dragon Ball Z abridged.

For real, that YouTube thing has ruined DBZ perception for newer fans, especially the ones that REFUSE to watch the real anime just because is "too long" or "dated" and now are quoting memes from the parody and misunderstanding the characters and story.

Why does this matters?

Because Dragonball was important for me, especially as a Latino, DBZ at it's prime was a religion in Latin America, still is. And seeing it being butchered by a unfunny parody (yes, I don't think the show is that funny) and being disregarded as lame or just dumb, especially since the parody gets rid of so much lore and makes the characters dumber for comedy and memes. It feels wrong.

Then again it would not be the only time USA ruined dragon ball, their bad dubs and awful music misrepresented the show before the parody, but that's another story.

I'm aware that I'm worthless but still can't turn off that libido or sexual desire and is killing me. Another thing to add to the list of failures as an male adult.

No job, own place, car, friends, virgin. Why am I even alive?

Have you seen that case of the "Cute Japanese weather girl" being bullied online?

Basically online bullied for getting a boyfriend, I know stuff like that happens in other countries but Japan is probably the worst with stuff like that, their obsession with idols is borderline creepy.

As a professional virgin, loser I keep myself on check and tries his best to not act like any of those dudes in the media I follow, like WWE (you know since wrestling is famous for having MANY attractive women)... A good exercise is to think like this: dude, if you see a beautiful, successful, young woman part of a media, plus being on the nerdy side of media you have 0 chances, why are you simping? Is virtually impossible to meet a normal woman already, such "goddesses" are unreachable (I'm ironically using the word).

But this behaviour looks more normalized in Japan and that part of Asia? (for what I've seen in many documentaries plus YouTube videos) Correct me if I'm wrong

Maybe I'm wrong, English is my third language though ...

I saw that other post about worst dates and honestly can't relate since I've never dated anyone, I just wanted to know if I was the only one here. That's it, you don't have to go deeper if you don't want to

I'm doing the driving lessons and I dread them every time. I don't feel like I'm improving much and it's just stressful. I feel like giving up. I'm only going because I passed the theory exam with that school, and i would had to spend more money (that I don't have) if I start again with other school, basically I'm too deep into it to stop.

Btw I now understand the hate towards manual cars. Automatic should be the only option, one less BIG distraction on the road, especially when you're new on these things, being too soft or too rough on the clutch is a matter of millimeters is ridiculous, watching the road, the signs, the traffic lights, the cars around you, the stupid people with their bikes, while fumbling in the car with the pedals is the worst... (unfortunately you must learn manual where I'm living).