Dinodicchellathicc

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[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

The apple jim beam wasn't great, switched to makers mark and that got my head spinning and it makes me feel, different, not happy, but almost there, almost happy. There's this girl at work that i just think is the best think since sliced bread and i can't stop thinking about her since I started drinking. I think my subconscious must like her more than my logical brain.

Funny story, she actually suggested that I start drinking whiskey because its a mens drink as opposed to beer or cocktails. I like cocktails though, it's a cathartic ritual i do to make a drink nearly every day. Even though that's what I like, here i am sipping my whiskey just because of what she said. Surely that means something right? Maybe I'm one of those people with a martyr complex. Or maybe I'm just a softey for pretty girls.

Anyway irregardless of all that I hear the bald eagles overhead when i sip this makers mark bourbon. I drink American whiskey because I'm a proud American who drinks American booze.

How's that balcones?

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Seattle Isn't known for bbq because it rains all the time. In fact all i know about Seattle is CHOP and that it rains a bunch and that Idaho potatoes are cheap there.

Anyway, do you brush on your hot sauce before bbqinf or after?

[–] [email protected] 6 points 1 year ago (1 children)

As far as i can tell its just a generic sweet bbq sauce.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago

I think tomorrow might be the fried noodles one. I already have a good spicy sweet and sour sauce, and I'll pair it with some fried chicken thighs if I'm not too drunk to drive to the store tomorrow.

Thanks friend, i think this is a good cookbook. I appreciate it

[–] [email protected] 5 points 1 year ago

Aw man, i wish i would've seen this earlier, I'm not happy with how the chicken came out. I think Teriyaki might've been the way to go. Something sweet when I'm feeling bitter would've been good

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Trust me friend, it's in my nature to to fuck up. I'll be at the bottom soon enough. And once I hit rock bottom I'll take the cowards way.

Seems like nothing I do is right. Like everything I do is detrimental.

For example I like to speed. I love to hear the roar of my engine on an open road. But also getting a speeding ticket sucks ass. I have a few and they stress me out so bad i struggle to sleep so I'm dog tired at work. I work graveyard so my boss expects me to fall asleep so he can write me up and fite me for cause so he can hire one of his friends and not have to pay me unemployment bc then he'd get in trouble with his boss.

I also like to cook but I live with my parents and they don't like my cooking. Kills my self esteem because I don't actually know if i cook well. I bbq once a week but do other things sporadically. From chicken parm to Chilaquiles. Today i spend $50 on chicken alone, somewhere around 15 lbs and they all went out to lunch today. Breaks my heart truly.

What really sucks is that i finally have some money in my pocket and I finally have some friends in my life, but i don't feel any different. It's like having the carpet pulled out from under your feet. I thought things would be different. I guess the only difference i was destined to make was about bbq sauce. Lol what a joke

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 year ago

I'm a big fan of vinegar flavors but moreso with beef than chicken. I unapologetically use A1 sauce with my bigger steaks. Then again I eat lots of steaks and I feel like A1 just provides a little bit of a flavor difference for it to feel like I'm not eating a whole pound of the same thing.

Then again I recently started pan frying my steaks with butter as opposed to grilling them on a propane grill and i think it's better that way imo.

[–] [email protected] 10 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Im drowning and bbq sauce is my life raft

[–] [email protected] 6 points 1 year ago (9 children)

Thanks homie. I actually quit therapy the last time because my issues were caused by me being broke, alone, and working long hours. My therapist said that my money would be better put towards my bills than therapy. That no amount of coping skills would make me not poor and alone.

Well I got a better job, made friends, and and I'm lightyears ahead of where I used to be, but still i find myself thinking about ending it. Personally I think my past depression kinda fried my brain and I'm permanently broken and probably need meds to be halfass happy.

I don't have enough enough money to move into my own place, and even though that's my goal, that's what I'd define as success, I'm not sure that'd make me happy. I know myself and I know if i lived by myself I'd be lonely and probably overdependant on my work friends. Also I've been trying to date but only halfass sending likes on the apps and just a little bit of flirting with my coworkers. In fact there's this one coworker I have that's i am just illogically attracted to. Only problem is she's out of my league in looks, economical standing, has degrees and she's also older. She's so different from me though, in almost every way. I thought i leaned right politically but jeez she really showed me what it's like to be conservative in Asia.

Idk i think that's just the bourbon talking though. I think about her more than i should, that's for sure. I'd give her everything if she asked even though I know it'd be wrong.

Anyway I'm going to try to sign up for BetterHelp. Honestly I'll have to lie because they reject certain people but i just can't afford anything else rn.

I appreciate you friend. Hope to see you around lemmy soon on a more happy post.

[–] [email protected] 57 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (18 children)

Not sure if anyone cares to know but i decided to go with stubbs bbq sauce. First i put on a dry rub of Pappys dry rub and cooked to 160 internal. Then i followed up with stubbs bbq sauce and finished at 170 degrees internal.

I didn't get down with the apple jim beam so i decided to do shots of Makers Mark cask bourbon. Might have a white claw and long Island iced tea later. Catch me on my plummet to rock bottom over on !cocktails.lemmyworld or occasionally! Cocktail.MidwestSocial

Unfortunately I think I might just have to go back to therapy because even bbqing doesn't cheer me up anymore.

Edit: the chicken has clashing flavors only fixed by getting blind drunk. Don't mix Pappys dry rub and stubbs bbq suace.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Looks great friend. I definitely want to step up my bbq game and i love spicy food. Today i just just went with simple and easy

[–] [email protected] 5 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Bro, didn't you hear the freedom in my voice, see the bald eagles as i entered the room, feel the crack of the liberty bell when you read my name?

I bleed red white and blue, my underwear is the American flag, i have a pet AR-15, and my car sings the national anthem. I am American.

Anyway thanks for the recommendation, i appreciate it friend

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