Melbourne

I forgot to post after my return post but I'm here, I've got all good news, I started a polymer clay jewellery business - I haven't had any sales yet but I'll get there eventually. I'm also really enjoying/experiencing the benefits of ADHD medication, it's wonderful having a clear brain for a good chunk of the day.

My ex-girlfriend's name just popped up as a recent chat in Facebook Messenger. A name which hasn't appeared on my phone for 8 years.

Turns out some old friends who have broken up have decided to leave some old group chats we all had together which I archived many years ago, which made them pop up again to inform me that they left the group. That means conversely, my name must have just popped up on my ex's Facebook Messenger too.

Fun times.

Trying to stay positive today...!

1. My makeup is awesome today.
2. My dog is hella cute.
3. The energy drink I've treated myself to is delicious.

Feeling really low today. The last month has been really tough, leaving Venice, the first city where I made great friends and felt like I belonged. Then, right before Christmas, I lost my beloved Nonna. I have been so busy I have just been pushing through and not thinking about it, but I feel it today. At least the PhD work today is funnish finishing off the speech and PowerPoint for a conference next week, I always enjoy making powerpoints.

Work sent me home after having a spew in their toilet lol. Had an interesting convo with my DiDi driver: he's from Delhi, and his family owned a "massage" shop that they wanted him to run. Instead he moved here and is happy with his job, his girlfriend, and his life. He spoke about the main difference between India and Aus is that there is more freedom to do what you want to here. Made me feel quite lucky and humble to be born here, and not have a family like that. And I love that he is happy here.

Anyway, I'm home now, dying on the couch slowly but surely lol

Not even 9 am and already three separate people got on my nerves. Haven't even left the house yet.

The kitchen is immaculately clean. Time to buy dinner so it can stay clean for at least a few hours.

Me: * hunts for glasses *
Sams: * screams for snuggles *
Me: Dammit, cat, I am trying to find my fucking glasses.
Sams: * wanders over and nonchalantly pokes them *
Me: * snuggles Sammi within an inch of her life *

Ground my teeth again but forcing myself to go to work. I must remember how grateful I am to be gainfully employed, I just wish my head and jaw didn't hurt so damn much. Having a little weep at the train station, ugh.

who wants some SOURRRRR GUMMY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORMS

The meds have settled. Last night was hard to sleep but tonight is much better.

I put everything on hold while I've been adjusting and now it's time to live again with these new chemical "enhancements".

I wonder what it'll be like.

Observations for today:

• clothing with brand names plastered all over it is vulgar and tacky
• I saw a bottle of Dove body wash in Woolworths today for seventeen dollars ...honestly getting fisted would be less painful than buying that.
• apparently it's going to get to 38 degrees on Sunday? We'll see. Some of these forecasts lately have a habit of being very changeable.

Think I need to find a new psych, but having been rejected by one before 15 years ago, I don’t want to put myself up for that hurt again. Yeah I’m complex. (ASD, cptsd from childhood, anxiety etc). Seems too hard to get help…,

Accidentally napped for over 3 hours. Woke and remembered the washing I put on at lunch time was still in the machine. Not covering myself in glory today.

Breakfast 🍏🍎🍐🍊🍋🍈🫐🍓🍇🍉🍌🍒🍑🥭🍍🥥🥦🥑🫛🍆🍅🥝🥬🥒🌽🥕🥐🍠🫚🥔🧅🥯🍞🥖🥨🧀🧇🥞🧈🍳🥚🥓🥩🍗🍖🫓🍕🍟🍔🌭🥙🧆🌮🌯🥗🍲🍜🍝🥘🍛🍣🍱🥟🦪🍥🍘🍚🍙🐠🍤🪼🦀🐙 🍗🥮🍢🍡🍧🍰🧁🥧🍦🍨🎂🍮🍭🍬🍫🥜🌰🍪🍿🍯🥛☕️🍵🍺🍶🥤🧋🧃🥂🍷🥃🍸🍹🧉🔋

Apologies. Chef overslept.

Kidcalhoon1 got her expander out today. First time she's smiled after a visit to the ortho. Feels good man.

pain is tiring, sleep elusive

first time in my life I fear getting old

on a super positive note other than my back and a little fat I'm really physically healthy,

I am tired. I have full belly. I have nap now.

That'll teach me to check my roster first thing - I got dressed for work, opened the app and realised that I don't have any clients today - my normal Tuesday morning is now Wednesday, at least for this week.
At least when I phoned the office to double check the receptionist and I had a good laugh together.

Hey

I'm really so bloody tempted by those "free return" Jetstar flights to Japan on sale right now. I wanna go. But I should find a job first or some other way of covering my rent between now and then. Argh

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Awww fun way to end the day, both downstairs bathrooms have various plumbing issues, and the guest toilet smells like sewage.

This houses nice clean interior really did fool us when we picked it, nothing but maintenance issues since day one.

Ugh. I showered before bed but was so exhausted I accidentally fell asleep with wet hair. Rewashed it, gave it a rinse of apple cider vinegar and dried it right away with the hairdryer - all of which should hopefully avoid any resulting scalp issues.

I'm still tired. Really overdid it yesterday around the house

Dinner is in the oven. I really should have started it sooner, I won't be eating until around 8pm tonight.

I got lots of stuff out of the house and shed today for hard rubbish. A fair bit of stuff has walked off on its own already which is good, although much of it has walked two doors down to a new neighbour's house. Hopefully they just need lots of stuff & are not hoarders.

Melbcat has a tummy ache and is ripping farts... her vet says she's ok to monitor but I'm going to watch her and try to sort out some help to take her back to the vet if this keeps going. I can't give her metacam in case that's the issue so I'm going to heat up her tiny personal wheatbag

Edit: She's still eating well and jumps at the rustle of treats