Melbourne

Hey all, Decided to take the plunge with aussie zone and nice to be invited into the daily thread. Hope you are all doing well

I went to visit nana in respite care today. The place she is is really nice and the nurses and the others there are lovely. I genuinely think it’s as nice as you can get with these kinds of things. The problem is that nana’s dementia means that she forgets why she’s there. Her short term memory is about 5 minutes long now, and every few minutes she asked me “when do I get to go home?” It broke my heart every time. She doesn’t remember what happened to put her there and she doesn’t understand. When she saw me walk into the common space she jumped up and said “you’ve come to take me home!!” It was all I could do to not cry on the spot. She’s also started reverting to being scared of my grandfather. He’s been dead for 30 years. He was a raging alcoholic and very physically and emotionally violent, but nana also gave out as much as she got back in the day and has never expressed being afraid of him before. But when I kept having to say to her “no Nan, this is your home now, remember? You’re here so that we can keep you safe” she’d just nod and go “right, to keep me safe from him he’s always so angry when he drinks.” So that’s interesting.

Anyway I took her to the pancake parlour and let her go to town and order anything she wanted and she was so stoked. She’s never as happy as she is when she’s got dessert.

I need and entire bottle of wine and a good cry now.

Dastardly Windows automatic update restarted my computer and made the bot homeless overnight. At least it was not the bot itself failing. It has now been turned off. I thought I'd shut off everything that could turn it off on me, but missed one.

I've been asked if I want to attend an IT security conference next week at the MCG which it comes with an MCG tour and a fine-dining lunch experience. I feel like I don't own clothes nice enough to attend something like that! I'm not fancy.

Heading to Melbourne next week. Taking the Jetstar roulette. Last time the flight was eventually cancelled at midnight and we got put up in a hotel and slept for like 4 hours before having to be up again for the earliest flight the next morning.

Definitely hoping that isn't the case this time.

I reached out to my old primary school a week or so ago about donating my books to the school library since they are the reason I am such a big reader and wanted to be a writer. They said yes and wanted me to come in for a talk but unfortunately couldn't make it work because of pupil free day on one day and specialist classes on the other. They asked if I could come for book week which I would love but probably won't be able too. I'm really sad I couldn't do it because I've really felt a connection to my school since my little one started school and I'm now studying education for a career change.

I'm still going to drop off the books and hopefully get to see what it's like inside. Last time I was in Melbourne I drove past and it's changed so so much. It's crazy.

So I’m browsing Kbin front page/new and what pops up? A sock darning how to video created by our illustrious moderator. Cute.

Half an hour wait for 3 potato cakes I noped out and bought a potato from the iga next door.

Chips it is!

Everythings coming up Milhouse. New job is good, exercise and money. Close enough to home and might be really close after training. aa is working. Finally got some closure on my previous shit cunts of employers and co workers, can resign and move on with life. Holiday is over and I have a new job. Also got news my son and mum are coming down for a couple of weeks in August. Got interviewed yesterday for a trans book and photo exhibition. So much positivity going around. Service work today, aa and my organistiion. Cook another vege stew, go for a walk, another meeting and then bed. My days are full of joy at the moment. Plus constantly playing with the cats. They are super happy at the moment. I got some treats from Aldi. They love them a bit too much but it's bringing us closer.

Purple sky.....shephard's pie.

Pretty sure that's how the saying goes.

Finally had my long awaited psychiatrist appointment today and lemme just say I'm so so so relieved she turned out to be very professional and empathetic and asked lots of very very relevant questions and wasn't at any point condescending or patronising. I'm quite emotional tbh. Just want to lie down somewhere and soak up the sun but I have this very time critical government related project thing I have to go and do now and my shoulders are killing me. I will do the lie down this weekend.

My floofy void is hogging the mini ironing board:

spoiler

Pizza has been cooked and consumed. OMG awesomeness pizzonified. No pics, I was too busy eating. Miss Meow is very displeased, she was under the impression that pizza was a sharing food, but I would not let her snag a piece and ate the whole thing myself.

I don't think you can get an easier hot meal than hot dogs. Yep I've scraped the bottom of the barrel with lips, hips and arseholes for dinner tonight.

With apologies to those whom have standard days, weekend! Four whole days without idiot manager. May they stay the fuck out of my dreams, that’s just too damn much.

Hey, be safe out there guys! The amount of idiotic driving and near misses I witnessed on the way to work was greater than usual for sure.

Exciting day trip to Northland. It has real shops, something Carlton and the cbd doesn't have.

I went by bus and that was excitement. 😬 A big speeding earthmoving truck pushed a van into our lane, evasive measures were taken.

Northland is so different to where I live. It has shops for children and men and families, homewares and variety stores, cafes that weren't just coffee shops. It's clean and quiet.

People there wear colours other than black. 😵

It's Midnight;

I feel better today. Yesterday my brain was a bit “foot to the floor on the accelerator” but today it’s much calmer. Which is strange, because I don’t think I’ve done anything different. Somethings just shifted inside me and I’m back to good again. Strange.

aaah, many swears old workplace resignation letter sent. I was super stressed right after then but and an aa friend called very soon after which was at just the right time. First time I'd wanted to drink in a month. That call, food, an anti anxiety med and some strong camomile tea and I'm deeply at ease again and feel like booze would be a very bad idea. End of an epoch of my life. I worked there for almost 17 years and they've always had shit management which really failed me when I needed their support. I expected a lot more solidarity from the staff also but received absolutley none, not even an are you ok? I'd given mine so freely and to my own detriment as the most senior member of staff. They're all on my resentment list. FUCK THEM! Their memories will fade away as I make better connections and they'll still be spineless psycophants. I deliberately avoid places I may see them because I really don't like my chances of keeping my cool around them. Ok, rant over. No stew made, but I think dinner is planned with some aa people after this evening's meeting. end rant, thanks for reading dear DT friends.

Oh my GOD. I was gonna post this bit of a rant because I couldn't find my pants. I was so annoyed and getting frustrated. I couldn't find them and I remembered wearing them Monday and put them on my bed. I even checked the laundry places.

...I washed them Monday night so they were in the hamper the whole time. I'm an idiot.

Good morning darlings, your mum says hello

In today's defiant act of self inflicted financial sabotage I'm getting 3 potato cakes @ $2.50 a pop when I go to the shops later. Tum tum can do this.. it has to.

They're newish and it's daylight robbery but they've lengthened their trading hours and are open every day now so seeing that viability warms the icy cockles of my heart.

Good painted sky tonight.

The bot is still in our hearts and minds.

Ominous hissing noise in my kitchen now identified as a leaking soda stream bottle. We aren’t going to blow up!

I wish it was the weekend already, I’m sick of work today, my boss is on holidays and someone has decided to change up one of the aspects of my job so that what used to take me about 45 minutes, took me 2 and a half hours today. Hopefully it will be quicker tomorrow, but I keep thinking about the fact that I usually have Fridays off and have to go in just to get frustrated.

It's that time of night DT

I just noticed that BBQ sauce is basically flavoured tomato sauce

Had a couple site servers go offline yesterday, in both cases it's the modems. One's a hard DUP fail (meaning it's the NBNco infrastructure in the pit outside), the other is the modem just straight up offline in the aussie broadband diagnostics. So i have nbnco going out today to repair one abd waiting on site to reboot the modem at the other. Simples, right?

Nope, $boss is already rabbiting on about replacing the servers and trying to light a fire under my arse screaming about random shit that doesn't even goddamn apply once actual diagnostics are run on the issues to hand.

Fucking spectacular

Two tasty hot dogs consumed. One burp not so tasty.

(One was in roll with cheese. The other one naked)

I wrote "drat" instead of "draft" in a work e-mail I just sent, and only noticed afterwards. Highly embarrasing.

I finally got paid, yay! And I sent my partner the money that I owe them from last October. It's a lot of money and goes over the savings budget, but it was only an extra $40 or so, and I'd rather it out of the way than still looming.

watching someone go through a doscunent of mine and "correct" my grammar/spelling is making me want to throw my keyboard.

I knew going back to the office would make me tired but holy shit it feels like my bones have turned lead in my sleep. I feel exhausted and very cranky, which is not ideal because cranky me is the single worst person I know.

Have a friend going to Olinda tomorrow, might suddenly become ill and go with. Had an incident at work when I started earlier this arvo and it's extremely soured my already diminishing taste for the place.