Fuck that's sad. I took a long break from most social media and just randomly came back because I'm no longer in crisis and I can see that things are still going the way I thought. I'm very much glad for the growth I've had recently and I want anyone who sees this to know that it can get better, a lot better, I just recently became able to voice my real feelings and stand up for myself and I'm finding out real quick what my family is actually like but also something really good happened very recently and it would not have happened if I was still just keeping my head down. Anyone feel free to reach out for support.