tentaclenumber3

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It just happened, alright? I drew it and then it happened and. I’m sorry to do this to you. Goodbye!

I don’t know what to say about this. I’m sorry.

I’m feeling completely disoriented and stunned and just….having a time processing everything. The digital world is changing too quickly. It feels like the ground has turned into lava. Maybe I’m not the only one feeling this way.

I used alcohol markers by ohuhu, a permanent marker, acrylic paint, a napkin and my tears.

I drew a pic that I posted here, since it addresses bullying. However it is also a German caricature, and I’m not actually German, plus I’ve been the recipient of a lot of German bullies so overall, Idk if it’s safe to post this there. I’ve heard horror stories about artists being bullied to death online. One guy was bullied for simply saying he liked girls a few years ago in a cartoon he made, and he was forced to leave the internet because he was getting doxxed and recieving death threats. Absolutely unhinged stuff.

I’ve never experienced this kind of cyberbullying before. It’s pretty intense and invasive. I’ve come to understand that I need to try to protect myself a little bit better. But people shouldn’t have to be forced into hiding online just because someone disagrees with something. If the thing they disagree with isn’t harmful, it makes no sense to bully them. All it’s saying is that the bully is a control freak.

It’s been kind of rough since migrating to this platform. I'll be honest, I’ve been a recipient of a lot of bullying on Lemmy, but I couldn’t help noticing a good portion of the bullies happened to be German, so. If they aren't gonna act like men then they have to wear the lederhosen. The girl in the top corner is not affiliated with them. She’s just vibing.

I was in a fugue state drawing this. If it is in any way upsetting, I will delete it.

I just want to write stories again and haven't been able to at all since 2025 due to...2025 and all that has entailed. I no longer feel safe or secure using any of my current devices. I feel surveyed and watched 24/7. I'm absolutely not okay with things as they are currently. (.-.) For more context, I have pre-existing mental disorders and this year has just done me in.

I'm striving toward switching out at least one device with something that I can install linux on. I was thinking either a lenovo or a dell, and will start probably with linux mint, they say it's a good beginner distro.

Not being able to write is killing me. I love writing so much even though it's not anything special. It just felt good.

I've never used linux but want to learn and I will learn, because you have to if you want to use it. You can't just hop in a car and hope it will work without knowing how to drive it. I will learn the commands. I'll fail at it a couple times but learn. It'll be great. Bring it.

I appreciate you taking time to reply.

Edit: You guys are amazing. My hope for the future is restored. Thank you!