This is actually how I feel about WebDev now.
Yeah I have those days too. I have about 5 years' experience, but after thousands of applications, I'm only getting a few replies.
swear my stupid fucking brain is only interested in things you can’t make money with…
Yeah I hear ya. I have lots of interests that are almost guaranteed not to make money.
Ah yeah same lol. I managed to get about 5 years' worth of a web dev career before this bottomed out.