blackboxwarrior

I think self-awareness can be a really positive tool to break yourself out of restrictive situations and thought patterns that may be causing you harm. I’ve found this to be true in my own life, with journaling in particular being one of the most beneficial kinds of self reflection. It’s gotten me out of bad relationships, living situations, and addictions.

That said, self-awareness that stares at a wall of things-you-can’t-actually-change can definitely be depressing.

Same here. Such a jarring and upsetting way to start a morning

didn’t even downvote, i suspect taking time to explain something you disagree with in a nuanced matter is more effort than most people would care to do

“respect your privacy” is a vague buzzword phrase, and for a post about local LLMs linking a client that calls APIs which log user data is unhelpful

Ollama used to be Facebook's proprietary model

Just to be clear, llama is the facebook model, ollama is the software that lets you run llama, along with many other models.

Ollama has internet access (otherwise how could it download models?), the only true privacy solution is to run in a container with no internet access after downloading models, or air gap your computer.

seconding this. i come back to myth of sisyphus if i ever feel overwhelmed by a lack of meaning

I've been extremely happy with my boox go 10.3! Crazy long battery life (on the order of months; no backlight and i keep wifi off), amazing reading experience (looks basically indistinguishable from paper) and writing experience is good enough as someone who doesn't write often on it.

I use jira software for task management! It’s just me on the team, so it’s maybe a bit overkill, but I’ve found scrum / sprints to be massively helpful in prioritizing important work.

It sucks jira is in the cloud, but I’m yet to find an open source scrum system with the same features. Taiga.io comes close, but i don’t yet have a reason to switch; i’ve been using Jira for two years with no issues.

i’d love a reading list! i have read a bit of marxist-inspired thought but never much marxism itself

Ah I see, there were 12 readings. My mistake.

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this qt, it can be really tough. I found myself in a similar spot when I transitioned and moved to a rural area. It’s been two years since then and i’m extremely happy in a T4T relationship.

On “feeling like a freak,” yeah, I get that. It sucks to feel that way. Part of that perception changes with time as hormones do their thing and you fit more into a feminine role… part of it doesn’t go away. I think it’s important to realize that if people are around you and being friendly they likely don’t think you’re a freak, and acting as if they do will just make it awkward. You’re not a pervert for being trans and liking cis women. Be confident and love yourself.

Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to <3 all will be alright.