Neurodivergence

This morning I'm mostly grumpy about my ADHD.

Firstly, I didn't get around to taking my pill until an hour after I got up, because I straight up forgot, despite remembering as I was pouring my coffee.

Then I just realised that I missed a Dr appointment yesterday, because it was made two fucking weeks ago, and despite being in the fucking calendar I can't be trusted to fucking remember anything.

I'm particularly angry about that, because it was to review (and hopefully increase) my meds...

I'm angry about that because it could have been a sodding phone appointment, but every drs surgery is run by old guys who are massively averse to anything beyond sitting in front of their patients so they can chastise them for being fat.

And I really want to practice the mindfulness I've been taught, to consider that this is a spiral, and that ultimately no harm has been done, I'll just be increasing (hopefully) my dosage a couple of weeks later.

But I'm frustrated that there's so much stuff I have to remember that I just can't. Other people manage to juggle all the needs on them, but I feel like I always fail, or at the very least that I can't be trusted to be consistent.