“Apologized” for sexually harassing Poppy, but also said:[2.8]
“Should I @ poppy in d.gg and tell her im onto her shit / Might scare her into shutting up”
“I have nothing to feel remorseful over and I will never feel comfortable in the company of people who falsely believe me a predator.”
“I also do not believe I engaged in any behavior worth apologizing for.
“I’m fine with people knowing I’m not gonna apologize / Because I have nothing to apologize for / Just relax a bit and make fun of them when appropriate”
“and yet, the fallout from this drama has led me to receiving hundreds, if not thousands of hate messages, cut me off from my social connections, and distances me from almost every left-leaning contact I had. / At this point, I feel very little obligation to apologize for anything.”
“The degree of social maligning I’ve experienced is so wildly disproportional to the misbehavior I engaged in that I don’t feel any apology was warranted to begin with. / Poppy is and always has been a liar, and nothing happened with Pastel with apologizing over. / I did wrong - a year and a half ago - but my regret isn’t the internet’s business. / This performative demand for apologies is incredibly toxic”
“Even I implicate myself too much.”
Vaush's sysadmin, WhiteNervosa, suggested changing Vaush's name to his former internet handle, IrishLaddie, in the Discord logs above to help him distance himself from his sexual harassment.
Vaush acknowledged that the above quotes are real,[2.9] yet he excluded all but the first from his “retrospective,” where he included fanciful, uncommon allegations such as that he sent death threats. He misrepresented his critics to delegitimize them and divert attention away from legitimate criticism.
Vaush claimed that he tried to apologize to Poppy, but was blocked. Poppy showed that it was the opposite - Vaush had blocked her.
Despite his fans’ mischaracterizations, Vaush said “I sexually harassed a girl two years ago, there's a video about it on my channel”. About 2 years later, he deleted the tweet.[2.10]
In response to someone saying that they “fucked an adult as a minor”, Vaush responded “Unironically hot”.[2.11]
“I have yet to hear a convincing moral or legal argument as why possession of child pornography should be illegal. Actual child pornography [...] Owning child pornography is probably a hell of a lot more ethical than wearing the t-shirts on your back right now.”[2.12],[2.13]
“Do you have any idea who the fuck you’re talking to? When I got off Tinder because of the fucking quarantine, Tacoma wept. Even ignoring the fact that I have a girlfriend, even if we’re just talking like randos, I’m two hours away right now from being inside someone else. I have two skills - it’s non-monogamy and speaking publicly, okay? Do some fucking research!”[2.14]
“Too bad nobody but your own fucking lefty dipshit friends are ever going to find [mayocide] jokes funny, and that the majority of people are actually going to find them ostracizing, cringy, and off-putting. And they're bad rhetoric, and it's bad optics, and it makes us look bad, and it makes us unironically look like we don't like white people. Cut that shit out. I even saw fucking Hyena doing that in chat. Bitch, shut the fuck up! I'm white people. You think you're fucking cute being a Latina girl? 'Ooh I hate white people,' then you're fucking riding white dick after the day's done? I see your shit, 'yea, I hate white people, sorry.' You and every other fucking brown chick on Instagram, who on the day hates white people and night goes right back to white dick. [...] ‘How is mayocide bad optics but ACAB isn't?’ Because cops are bad.”[2.15]
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