"Won't have to pay if I get rid of the block function. It's not harassment if everyone's being harassed!"
-lil musky, probably
Gigagoblin
joined 1 year ago
Henlo, I am Gigagoblin! 30's, neurospicy, non-binary, queer. Kinda over all the labels, honestly, just trying to exist. I'm very low-energy & social situations make me spill spaghetti everywhere, but it's easier to connect online! I kinda have huge trouble getting started on things, as well as finishing them & my interests come & go. That said, I'm into writing (poetry & lyrics, mostly), music, movies (especially horror!), cyberpunk, fantasy, spooky things & Digimon. There are manga & anime I enjoy, but I'm not like, obsessed with the mediums. I also enjoy all kinds of gaming, but it's hard to commit when your brain can suddenly decide The Thing is no longer sparking joy.
Essentially, I'm trying my best in the framework I was given. I know I've treated people poorly in the past due to my own pain. It's easy to take it out on others when you're miserable & without hope. Thing is though, I'm also a parent to the most wonderful child & I need to be the kind of person she deserves.
It turns out I'm better off without the people I'd been hanging out with for 15 years, but it also means I'm basically friendless at this point. I don't usually mind the solitude, but sometimes the silence becomes deafening. I guess it's because it's no longer really a choice? Anyway, looking forward to chatting with people here! Apologies if I'm immediately coming across as super depressing, I seem to always be "going through some stuff" & I'd rather paint an honest picture of myself!
Super stressed out, honestly. It sucks a lot, because dad & I took my offspring to a cabin trip & all I can think about is my current situation. I don't wanna go too deep into it, but I'm having trouble with my place of care. Not sure about the correct terminology in English, but basically, I've filed a complaint & am awaiting their response.
That said, I've been enjoying Beehaw a lot & I'd like to wish everyone a wonderful rest of the week!
Autistic parent of an ADHD child here, hello! I believe that the kiddo's diagnosis immensely helped her mother get one as well. Stuff like that takes a while to sink in, but IMO, it's very liberating when you get to see a professional about your struggles & go, "oh, THAT'S what this is!" I also believe that my own diagnosis helped our child.
I actually wasn't diagnosed until I was already well into my 20's & from that POV, I couldn't be happier that offspring was diagnosed early. It's not all roses for her either, of course, but the constant blaming (self & otherwise) & crushing sense of isolation is something I wouldn't wish on anyone.
Ironically, due to my own upbringing, offspring's executive dysfunction can sometimes be a little challenging for me. Having been seen as dumb & lazy haunts me every day, but I'm doing my best. Our relationship is wonderful & we often laugh at neurodivergent memes together.
It's funny too, because offspring has been suspected of being on the spectrum, while I've been suspected of having an attention disorder. Unfortunately though, the quality of my care is currently such that it's impossible to be probing further.
Finn here, hello! I saw Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds at Pori Jazz 2018. They were the last act of the day, starting a bit after midnight, I believe. Cave remarked something along these lines:
"It's the middle of the night & I can see everyone clearly. This is fucking horrifying."