Doomers

All the studies that show how the environment will collapse within my lifetime. I wish I wasn’t even born at all so I wouldn’t have to live to see something like this. It’s hard to not be a doomer when the world is literally dying around us because the super rich, the boomers and gen x don’t give a damn about anyone but themselves.

I'm convinced that there is no way to avoid a climate induced environmental collapse, and there never was. The entirety of our evolution has been a competition for resources where the winner reproduces their genes better than the loser. Fossilized carbon is the most valuable resource the planet has to offer. It powered the industrial revolution and provided the energy to create the society we live in today. And it fueled the largest growth in human population in history. We compete bitterly with each other (on a national level) to have access to fossil fuels. And any group of us who decides to reduce their usage for the benefit of the earth will simply be allowing another group to use 'their' share of fossil fuels. And the altruistic group will suffer while watching the other group prosper. We don't have the ability as a species to think ahead for the good of the planet. It's never been a useful survival strategy. It's our nature to compete, each of us wanting more for ourselves or our group, regardless of the consequence for others. So we will continue to extract and burn until it's no longer possible. I see no alternative.

As far as how I come to this conclusion, it's hard to say. I think there is a logical thread here that leads me to a reasonable, if pessimistic, conclusion. Maybe something in my history killed my faith in the collective good of humankind. Maybe game theory points this way. Not sure. I want to say my opinions and observations are self-evident, but probably everyone thinks that about their own ideas.

I'm a closet doomer. As with my atheism, I keep this part of me secret from all but a select few and certain corners and byways on the the internet.

In the mid-90s I had an awakening of awareness that I was a doomer, although that term did not yet exist.

How did I get there? Easy peasy.

Beginning in about 1970, I learned about something called the greenhouse effect. I found it intriguing and wondered about the implications, so I chased my curiosity down a rabbit hole and concluded that it was a disaster in the making and has been since at least as far back as mid-1800s. There were a few people warning of potential problems, but they were basically ignored or dismissed as nutty.

I started talking to friends and relatives and teachers about this stuff and was quickly consigned to the ranks of the nutjobs.

I sought out what environmental groups were in the area and was quickly consigned to the ranks of the nutjobs.

I sought out what social and political justice groups were in the area and was quickly consigned to the ranks of the nutjobs.

I sought out political parties and their support groups and was quickly consigned to the ranks of the nutjobs.

I'm a slow learner, so it wasn't until the early 1990s that I realized that there was a deeper problem that needed to be solved first. People and the institutions and organizations they create are very good at ignoring big problems while working very hard to solve small ones. Likewise in identifying problems: it's easy to get agreement that a pothole needs fixing and hard to get agreement on snow clearing and impossible to get agreement and how to raise the money to pay for either. And climate change makes almost everything else look small by comparison.

By the mid-1990s I'd concluded that this problem of getting people to both pay attention and act could probably be solved, but not in time to mean much for me or the next few generations. So, doomer.

But, I guess, more like "doomer lite," because a decade later it looked like the problem of dealing with human psychology was actually further than ever from anything like a solution, so I came to a more modern version of doomerism.

Now, the last decade, but especially our collective response to COVID, has pushed me over to "doomer supreme." I no longer think anything short of civilization-scale evolution can take us to the point at which we can ever tackle any problem that plays out over a century or more. We will never collectively agree on anything with those kinds of timelines in time to actually address the problem with any kind of effectiveness.