Asklemmy

The fact that this all is going to end sooner or later.

Not a damn thing. There aren't enough words in the English language to express the animosity I feel towards this world.

My kids. Not much else though.

That all of my recent health issues the last 3 months were temporary.

I'm aware that it makes people cringe, but it's so true that I've never been more happy; more bottoms than a top could ever ask for... Enough to over come the negativety from all the judgemental or bitter queens.

I am about to get married =)

Right this very second, my chicken preening herself next to me, occasionally pausing to make sure I see her preening herself so that I continue to sweetly praise her

I made a shit tonne of brownies and ive had 2 cups of sugar in one day alongside 5 cups of coffee. WHAT A DAY TO BE ALIVE

PS. Folks add pomegranate molasses to your pantry and your brownies. One of my favourite ingredients to give a dish complex depth in flavour, works with sweet and savory.

If everything goes according to plan, I'm moving to Europe.

I was able to revive my old PlayStation 2 thanks to Hacks and Homebrew and I'm replaying several games from my childhood apart from playing several others that I couldn't at the time, and I'm having a wonderful time.

Love my kids, love my wife. Feel useful at work. Getting rdy for the final stretch of my undergrad. Life is a grind atm and I don't have a lot of free time, but I wouldn't swap it for anything else.

I’m very happy to be a land owner. Just a few months ago I bought some land and now live in an RV on the land. Tomorrow we drive about 7 hours round trip and get the last of our stuff from storage. So happy to not pay that rent anymore.

We have fresh air, beautiful views, and tons of space to work on projects, free electric from solar, and soon free water from rain. I can’t wait to start our garden soon, then it will be free groceries.

Factorio!

My family. I feel really good that I can trust and rely on my parents, that I can talk to my brother, that I have my grandma close and still healthy. It's a privilege to be related to these people, to be honest.

This instant? PBS Kids.

… not much.

My romantic life is painful and turbulent at best. My job is collapsing because of the tariffs. I owe too much on my car to keep it if I lose my job and it needs a new clutch anyways, which is about $3000 that I don’t have for the cheap one. Family is distant, cold, and unsupportive. My government is doing its best to make life (as a trans person) as painful as possible. Best friend died last year, my only other friend has just kinda fallen off the face of the earth. My hobbies are frustrating and unfulfilling. I have vivid nightmares nightly. My body is deteriorating to the point of near disability. I eat the same shitty $5 chicken sandwhich every day. Insurance won’t cover therapy and suicide seems more and more likely by the day.

My coffee was warm this morning though so, I guess I’ve got that going for me today.

My dirt bike

I'm really struggling but actually doing extremely well, all things considered. We've had a hostile takeover so even if I keep my job, it really feels like it's going to shit. My garage was broken into and my bikes nicked or damaged - that really sucks bug moreso because is my main hobby, exercise and coping mechanism :(

I'm hoping I can order a new mountain bike with a gearbox, so that'll be really exciting - but it's ages away at best.

The reality is my family love me and I'm successful, so in real terms, things are good - but I really need to work on my imposter syndrome and inner accuser!