I don’t blame you either.

I think most of the discrimination I get comes from my teachers from elementary school who would stigmatize their special needs students and do things like scream at them or make them watch them throw away their favorite foods like cake because they claim they don’t cooperate with them even though they’re all different people in same classroom.

And while my life has been problematic already, other people still get under my skin.

I once ruminated about missing earbuds in a treatment facility unit and a staff there set me off so badly another one snapped at me for it.

Years later, I would try an autism program that despite touting autistic adults working jobs while living in apartments, they still treat me no different than anyone else because they have no idea why I behave the way I do there.

I’ve done some outlandish things in my life and people still have no idea how my autism works even though I’ve been a special needs person neglected by the public all the whole time.

And my parents still think I can just improve and they took me back home with them because I eventually did the right thing and called a crisis center because the program I was in put my life in danger and people still scolded me for it because I mishandled it.

I have what everyone calls ‘high-functioning autism’ but my life is perpetually broken.

And because people claim to be helpful all the time, I’m told to accept that or no one will.

There are so many people I reject because of it and seemingly no one believes I’m different because everyone wants me to change so I can be good in their image and be a successful person in general like the others.

It just seems like everyone has a lack of empathy or knowledge of how autism works instead of philosophy, discipline, and generally no respect for how so many of us work.

And that’s exactly how I sought help twice in the first place and I’m still not happy about all the people in my life whatever I or they do.